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Achey Breaky heart....
September 15 2010
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RHP User
15 years ago
Geez Stalky , how can you ever forget the one you let go, or the one that broke your heart? We are all victoms of it at some point, i think it is the way we move on and what we take from the experience. I can only talk for myself , but when there are warning signs going off and that little voice comes into playing you have to listen to it..This doesnt mean i have baggage as some like to put it..It just means you have seen these signs before i dont want to go down that road again.. I have been lucky in love and stupid in love..When the next right one comes along god help me !! Now where are my bandaids..umm might need a drink tonight !
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RHP User
15 years ago
Oh boys, how sweet and tender you both are. Of course I have loved and lost, one died tragically and as mentioned in a previous forum was the love of my life. But I did go on and form lasting relationships with others yes. I do sometimes dream of this man and spend time thinking of him - and others. One left with my best friend, a girl I grew up with and the sad fact was yes I did miss my friend. He has recently made a peripheral entrance back into my life after many years. Yet another was in a car accident which left him with a permanent brain injury - not the man I met ever again. One day I too hope to find another man I wish to spend my life with and until that does happen, I will keep on looking. I know what it is like to make the unlucky choices and I am wary of making another but I also know that we are not meant to live as solitary beings and will keep on looking, experiencing love and life to the max Fionabee
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RHP User
15 years ago
Yes, remember all of them, the ones I let slip away and the very few whose heart went begging. Remaining single all this time ensures no more memories to yearn over & eventually file away in the deep, dark recesses of a scary mind.
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RHP User
15 years ago
Well at last they are showing their tender sides... I may only be a young one (in comparison to the previous 3 posters I can see) but I have felt that and lost that...I will never forget my first 'love', never forget a lot of the heartbreaks, never forget the 2 most significant relationships in my past, never forget my first best friend (she died when we were 7) and never forget my latest heartbreak..I think essentially we are all looking for that special some one to share our lives with...I'll just keep looking and continue to be jealous of those who have found that person Kisses Focus
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RHP User
15 years ago
Not that many for me, either way. Well, that I know of. I've never been the type of girl that people form crushes on so I doubt there's any barista's pining away because I no longer get my coffee from them any more. I broke the heart of my first serious long term boyfriend. The final nails beaten into the coffin on Valentines Day (after I told him not to visit), him cap in hand, a dozen roses and a note with a reason for each rose as to why he loved me... I feel like such an insensitive cow every time I think back to that moment, his puppy dog eyes drooping as I told him it was definitely over and I wasn't playing hard to get... I'm a commitment-phobe from way back and would prefer to love the one I'm with when I'm with them... none of this angsty shit! Free love, free condoms and free spirits! Currently I'm in love with 3 men. One is that kind of "from-afar" infatuation. I don't expect my heart will be broken because my love for them isn't reliant on them loving me back. Sure, how awesome would that be, but it's not necessary, and I enjoy their presence when I can.
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Jennie1972
15 years ago
In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love.
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RHP User
15 years ago
People come and go in your life, you have to be a bit philosophical about these things. I have had crushes on a few women that haven't gone anywhere and that causes a certain amount of anguish i guess.As far as i know i haven't left any broken hearts behind, but then again i'm male....would i notice the signals anyway!I am one of those lucky ones that found that special someone, and so far she hasn't run screaming for the hills.I have no idea what she sees in me....but glad she is here, if she ever left i would be truly heartbroken, and i don't know if i would ever get over her.Cheers Nev
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RHP User
15 years ago
Ahhhh man hearts hurt ....... don't you wish you could live without em ! naaaah me either ! Great questions ...... I have never thought of a heart I may have broken from a far. I have worked as a bouncer .... I have boxed ... you can get hit, you get back up ....... NOT hearts , hearts knock you flat of your feet ...... make you weak and make you think your no good. If your hearts been hurt ..... and all of ours have at some point ..... Luv to you Gaz. May the days till your's feels well again come soon and the nights pass quickly. To all the lovers of hearts .....thankyou. Brae
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RHP User
15 years ago
Many doors open and shut...and some take their lifes...such as my ex... The love of my life took his life...not fair! Bandaids in abundance! Oh MsFocus that would have been hard, farrk I too lost my first love to Coke, not the drink... Live and let live now for sure...omg this is a serious post massive mmm reaching for the last chardonnay lol.. Love is love and my love use to wait every freaken day for me to come home from work and shower together, intimacy!!!! Cant say anymore.. I am very much still here right now and love my life very hard..corners are to be turned xxx
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RHP User
15 years ago
Quoting 'Jennie1972'In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love. Very true... On topic-I feel it may be better to have had an unforgettable love than never to have loved at all...that would be a real tragedy or waste of 80 odd years-to have lived a life without ever having loved someone so much that you would lay down your life for them...and in many ways if you did...you feel no regrets-that some experiences are worth all you have to give for them... I wonder-if you are not prepared to give all of that love in your heart away to at least one person with complete abandon without fear at least once in your lifetime-are you truly lovable? Will you ever find love? Should anyone ever risk falling in love with you? Is it worth looking again? Will the strongest "love liquor" now on offer ever match or satiate your need after the "hedonistic heroin" you shot up daily and became accustomed to? I was thinking about this very thing today...damn you Molko your track 11 and your insightful lyrics which cause one to ruminate with nostalgia. Fortunately in time the tears of grief and loss turn to smiles and laughter for all the happy memories you shared with your lost lover.... Protect me from what I want: It's that disease of the ageIt's that disease that we craveAlone at the end of the rave We catch the last bus homeCorporate America wakesCoffee republic in caseWe open the latch on the gateOf the hole that we call our homeProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me protect meMaybe we're victims of fateRemember when we'd celebrateWe'd drink and get high until lateAnd now we're all aloneWedding bells ain't gonna chimeWith both of us guilty of crimeAnd both of us sentenced to timeAnd now we're all aloneProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me protect meProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me protect meProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me protect meProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me from what I wantProtect me protect me Requiem 4 a NymphetamineDrm
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RHP User
15 years ago
Love and loved lost...the choice perhaps between a a painful memory of an experience or simply a memory of an experience that was painful. | In either...it's a coin toss and you are never guaranteed that it will come up heads or tails. Don't look for a "User's Manual" or a valid warranty. This model doesn't come with one and is legally covered by caveat emptor. | The alternative is not to take a risk. Apathy. No string, no velcro and no rubber bands. Not much in it other than a physical experience...but sometimes that suits. It's your show and you are the director. | Of course the definition of life without risk is...a bit cliche'.
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RHP User
15 years ago
Sadly my latest heart break came from this site thought i'd met someone who was totally different than any other guy I'd ever known convinced me to go with my gut instincts as I did fell further than I ever should have ..... You know who you are if I had a magic wand right now I knwo whta I'd be wishing for tonight.... You will hold a place in my heart that is there for good,....
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RHP User
15 years ago
Met this girl through a mutual friend many years ago now, and we became good friends, while she was going out with him, after thet split we lost contact for quite a few years, then one day we ran into one another in the shopping centre, and have been best friends ever since, she was even the ' best person ' at my wedding, got her to dress in a suit and everything, she's moved away now but our friendship still remains strong.
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RHP User
15 years ago
Quoting 'NymphetamineDrm' Protect me from what I wantProtect me protect me Requiem 4 a NymphetamineDrm I'm an idiot-no one should take any advice from me... I just f***ed up the best thing that ever walked into my life...in record speed. As a hearing person that had been living in the deaf world-you actually develop a bit of a fetish for someone that can talk on the phone with a lovely voice...amongst their other talents... You're not big on text as that was all you could do with someone that couldn't hear you...in fact you're all texted out... For the record-when you have walked back into your life-and the music starts again-should you perceive any threat to your happiness with a lack of sleep-and no explanation-it definitely does not deliver good results... I almost smashed my new iphone4 in frustration today...when instead of talking to me I got a message-yep I'm potentially violent towards technology too... I just ruined my shot at something that runs at a very low percentage here...on Earth. It's taken me over 30 years to meet one...so that project went well wouldn't you say? I'd kill myself except I'd probably fail at that too...and why end the suffering I've become accustomed to? Plus I can report that in 30 odd years I'm very confident that I've already met most of the inhabitants of Hell and the people that will end up there-via my personal and professional life. So really why speed up the process with a suicide? The only difference between here and there at times is the temperature, smell of sulphur and depth of location. And here I can get away from them...well with enough candles and water and invocaton lots of things can be achieved..I've found. My best friend told me I am my own worst enemy as I expect people to be on my timetable-that they are probably headed to the same stop as me but not all are comfortable at warp speed like me. Maybe that's why I like sci-fi? It's not just all the pvc, gadgets and shiny outfits-after all.. That I need to understand that others do not operate on my high frequency-you'd think I'd learn after all these years on the wrong freaking planet-but no-I'm a total f***ing idiot alien. (I did like how he'd say "language" when I swore). I asked her-if she thought I was crazy-she said yes-but bless her she said the kind of crazy that this world needs-the person that will go 800km to make sure someone is ok, that will sit with you in a chair in the hospital for 3 days or that will work through two nights this week preparing a court document to ensure a child will never be returned to a situation of abuse with a predator. Being that tired probably didn't help my decision making...and knowing what I do about that child's life didn't really reinforce my faith in good things being possible...it was a very bad combination of events...that led to my neediness.. She went on to say-I am like petrol on a fire and people are attracted to me because I'm bright, warm and glow-but then they get either distracted from their daily lives or terrified by that flare ups so they run...and because they don't hang around, they don't get to know me so they don't know the other sides to me like her and my other good friends-I've known for years and many just don't actually care about the other things anyway.. She says I forget about boundaries as I can read people fairly quickly and bound right in-fearless-but others aren't used to that and think it's something else-people fear what they don't understand. She also said at times she and I need time apart-however-it's easier to walk away from someone you've known for a while because you know them-it's harder to do that when it's someone you're new and wanting to know everything about them and you're not sure if they'll be around and you're halfway through getting to know them and you're like the kid at the toystore you just don't want to leave... She said I shouldn't be surprised with what happened-she told me it would-she had told me to stay away-but I was like a nerdy kid always wanting to see what would happen if you poked the hornet's nest...then she asked if I was still there because for once there was silence...just quietly there were a couple of sobs and sniffles... She told me others can't see what I can-so they just see the big fire and most people are afraid of being burnt-especially if they have been before-but if I see no danger I just walk right up-and say ok let's do it-not just the kinky deviate stuff (that's reserved for the vip's only) but show me what else you got-as nothing really scares me or makes me think someone's weird-just really, really interesting and attractive to me. Unfortunately, being that way is dangerous for me-because it leads to disappointment when people do have walls around them and they think because I'm trying to see over-as I 'm just curious-that I'm actually trying to re-enact a Viking raid. I'm not-I'm just really interested-like you might hear a quote and want to read the book-it's just I tend to read them in one sitting-it's just to learn as much as soon as possible because I appreciate what they are I'm enthusiastic-the intention is not to change or destroy it-just learn everything about them asap. If they push me away I get frustrated-and can be very bratty-not thinking they just want a rest-but thinking they want a rest from me-thinking what the hell have I done now? I'm strange I know, but it's all I know. I wish they'd see how that fire they are scared of gives me the energy to be loyal, generous and kind and do everything with passion-often people just think I'm mad or fake. Maybe I should change from buying a special friend pvc to designer asbestos clothing? It would kind of look hot-like Han on Hoth I guess...white with goggles... It's my fault-I'm an utter idiot-give me a book and a paper to write I can get a HD... give me a language to learn-I can learn it and win an award. This interaction I can't seem to do-at all-I really don't understand you humans or people pretending to be humans at all....I know I'm not one of you because I don't think anything like you.. I don't get playing games with someone you like or love as life is too short and there's nothing playful or fun about visiting anyone in a cemetery-so I say why waste time you actually have-is it to pine for it endlessly when it's all too late? I don't get exploiting the vulnerable or the weak as you're just showing how powerless you really are. I don't understand anyone purposely hurting a child as removing their innocence and trust will never restore yours. I don't get lying to people you love or that love you-if you tell the truth from the beginning you're far more likely to find the person into cling wrap, harnesses and underwear too or whatever Drm-y stuff you're into..unless you're like me and then you are also expert at driving them away... I don't get that you can't be profane and profound with the same person-how do you manage this? I don't get not telling someone you love them if you do-is there a fine now if this happens? I don't get wilful destruction because of greed you cause to each other whether it be on a personal or national level. I don't get not forgiving someone if they truly are sorry and it really was because they had a bad day/week or their parent/pet died etc. I don't understand how if you really like someone you wouldn't feel crazy jealous for them-not saying you should slash their tyres-or act crazy-but isn't that kind of great the moment that something happens that makes you realise-wow I really do like them-and really what's wrong with great moments like that? I don't get how if someone you like likes you back is cause for you to terminate an association-because it means you are weak-or a freak. I always found liking or loving someone gave me more strength than I ever imagined. I thought that was the idea to find people you liked as friends or more and have a great time whilst above ground...in the bedroom or any room or dancefloor, warehouse, field, forest or beach. I don't get how you can't be loving towards someone you are only going to spend the night with-I don't understand why people have to run around like sex burglars-first casing the joint to see if there are any easy ways in-to only to leave lives and places in disarray like they've been ransacked for great treasures-when it was only ever a humble place to start. There's so much on offer for free there really is no need surely? Sorry but some of the stories I read in forums remind me of crime scenes. I don't understand when these bizarro rules came into play and by who's authority and what would really happen if we said-"No more-we're going to treat people with respect and dignity"-surely it's only going to mean there's going to be less hurt and f***ed up people-therefore less people that end up going on to endlessly be hurtful to others in a futile endeavour of attempting to lessen their pain by burdening others? I don't get how some people are allowed to have bad days or nights but some others are just expected to stand endlessly steering the ship through the icebergs in the dark, in the fog, with endless responsibility foisted upon them with no breaks as everyone else is either "mad", "busy", "working" or "self-actualising" and should they falter just once due to sheer exhaustion and fear of crashing the ship as they really don't know for how much longer they can go on being all things to all people-not from selfishness-yet they are deemed deficient or unworthy when so many that have let others down due to selfishness or self-promotion are held in high esteem, revered and welcomed back endlessly. Not sure there's any point going on really-I've scared all the men away now...well the human ones definitely..The demons, vampires and trolls etc are circling again... Seriously-who can or would possibly take interest now in a self-professed idiotic, strange, nerdy, intense, alien-that doesn't want to ever send or receive text messages and likes all kinds of weird and twisted stuff? If I want someone cute to play with I'll just go into the club and glamour them..... It's just not as interesting to me as what my friend told me to leave well alone...or I'd f*** it up! You can see why I call her the oracle..her predictions are always accurate. I'm going to go completely retrosexual now and insist I cook dinners for someone I really like (she asked me if I'd cooked for him as she said he would have been a real idiot not to hang around for that) I don't care what we do after....just talk to me...during dinner.. I don't mean to discriminate-I just can't afford to be with a man that's an idiot-I'm already carrying too much idiot around with me-need someone that can cope with my disability. That will understand how it feels to me if he refuses to talk to me... I know it's my issue-I own it-but the right guy will just say-"well if five minutes of talking to her per day will make her relax-to trust me to do all that we do together-for all the other stuff she brings-it's not really a big ask"... Although probably won't be available for a while though... His kind-his stuff he gives makes you very high and greedy...you want more and more.... It's very addictive feeling good... It may not have been intended-but it happened.. Didn't help that he said what he did.... I wonder if Watchers do actually see everything? I'm an absolute idiot-I can't do a simple thing-leave him alone.. I don't know why I spend so much time bloody thinking... Explains why he wouldn't want to be with me...why would anyone want to sleep with me? I'm so intense at times-I can't even sleep on my own... I hate this planet at times! S.E.T.I is f***ing useless!!! You humans are somewhat attractive at times but you're technology is lacking, so far only delivered one of my real liking.... That's against your primitive rules also isn't it-females aren't allowed to say they like someone they are expected to torture and torment and make a male twist-because if they just say I like you-apparently they are desperate or defective. When can I get a ride out of here? NymphetamineDrm
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RHP User
15 years ago
( I don't have a similarly ginormous post to make, a sentence doesn't seem adequate...)But hope you feel happier soon Nymphetamine :)
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RHP User
15 years ago
Quoting 'sydneyboy3au'( I don't have a similarly ginormous post to make, a sentence doesn't seem adequate...)But hope you feel happier soon Nymphetamine :) Thanks-there is nothing nicer at a time like this than sweet words from a man with nice form and a bookcase.. NymphetamineDrm
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RHP User
15 years ago
I've been out walking...for hours, I've got something on my mind. How did we get here...where are we going? And why is life so hard? |I read the stories...see the photographs, World's in a crazy place. I've got to hold on...to my dreams, There's just no other place. |I believe...we can change anything. I believe...we can rise above this. I believe...there's a reason for everything. I believe...in my dream. |I've seen the shadows...of the living, Seen them turn and walk away. I keep searching...for the right words, To send these thoughts away. |There's a picture...I like to look at, A picture of a beautiful face. And I see something...in her eyes, Sends me to a better place. |I believe...we can change anything. I believe...we can rise above this. I believe...there's a reason for everything. I believe...in my dream.
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RHP User
15 years ago
Quoting 'ChasingMidnight' I've been out walking...for hours, I've got something on my mind. How did we get here...where are we going? And why is life so hard? |I read the stories...see the photographs, World's in a crazy place. I've got to hold on...to my dreams, There's just no other place. |I believe...we can change anything. I believe...we can rise above this. I believe...there's a reason for everything. I believe...in my dream. |I've seen the shadows...of the living, Seen them turn and walk away. I keep searching...for the right words, To send these thoughts away. |There's a picture...I like to look at, A picture of a beautiful face. And I see something...in her eyes, Sends me to a better place. |I believe...we can change anything. I believe...we can rise above this. I believe...there's a reason for everything. I believe...in my dream.Love it - Believe in the better times that await us all.... No looking back only forward. xooxoxoxxx
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RHP User
15 years ago
Just beautiful. I too believe we can change things, We can rise above this. We need to hold onto a dream for without dreams, there are no ambitions.
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RHP User
15 years ago
Oh wow this truly is a heart breaking forum. May you all be safe your hearts be well again. Brae .................
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RHP User
15 years ago
speaking for myself referencing my profile title this phoenixbirdis rising from the ashesto whatever this beautiful life has in store. Heart can only stay broken if you choose to let it. Excited and cant wait to whatever wonderful life experiances await.
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RHP User
15 years ago
I'd forgotten about this thread till I saw it pop up on the front page - thought it was a new one about Billy Ray going to splitsville
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